Monday, May 17, 2010
But there is a very unique and specific calling for me. One that He had in mind before I was even born. Paul and Barnabas were called out by His Holy Spirit for a specific mission.
Acts 13:2 "While they were ministering to the Lord and fasting, the Holy Spirit said, "Set apart for Me Barnabas and Saul for the work to which I have called them."
In that passage it does not say what the specific calling was on the two. But He had obviously told them. When Paul wrote some of the letters to the churches, he told what his calling was. (Rom 1:1; 1 Cor. 1:1; Gal 1:15-16)
Can you bring Him the most glory from your life without knowing a specific calling? Could Paul have been as effective in spreading the gospel if he had not received a specific calling?
He knew he was called to preach the gospel to the gentiles. He had his target, so he could stay on mark. That was how God wanted to glorify Himself in Paul.
Think of how much time we waste when we do not know our calling. We stand around not knowing what to do.
2 Peter 1:10b "Therefore, Brethren, be all the more certain His calling and choosing you;"
1 Thes. 5:24 "Faithful is He who calls you, and He also will bring it to pass."
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Man, it is crazy how much I depend on it. It's such a natural thing. My job even depends on it. 2 weeks now not working. That's going to hurt.
Mother's day was interesting. All I could do was whisper. And with some not able to hear very well with my normal voice, it made for some very frustrating conversations. And since most cannot read lips, words were a completely useless form of communication. :D
But the hardest has not been the lack of conversations with others. It was the first day, on Sunday.
The team was leading us in worship and I opened my mouth to sing, and nothing came out. It broke my heart. I wanted so badly to sing! I felt like I couldn't worship as much without my voice. but then it hit me....
When you get so used to worshiping God in a certain way at a certain place, I think it becomes more of a habit. Why else would I feel that I couldn't worship as well in that setting? It's so routine I don't even recognize it.
I love that I can sing. And I love that the Lord has called me to sing. But I must not love singing for God more than I love God.
In My Utmost For His Highest, Oswald Chambers writes, "Your god may be your little Christian habit-the habit of prayer or Bible reading at certain times of your day. Watch how your Father will upset your schedule if you begin to worship your habit instead of what your habit symbolizes."